hayden and kayden,

hi my baby boys how are you me and mommy are good me and mommy are very very sorry we havent writen you two for a wile but we have a new computer now so we are going to write you two me and mommy love and miss you both so much i really wish you two were here with us but you are daddys and mommys little angels and we know you two are watching over us all the time . and we are thinking about you two all the time . me and mommy love you two bunches . we love you two with all our hearts .

with all our love daddy and mommy

kayden and hayden ,

Hello to my two wonderful baby boys. I am so sorry me and daddy havent had a chance to write to you two in awhile. well the beginning of june, we went to tennessee for 3 days. and i couldnt really have fun, because everything i saw or did- it kept reminding me of how great it would be to see you two there doing those things. and i felt so bad going down there and leaving you two up here for that weekend. i am so sorry i will never do that again if you two dont want me to. because i dont ever want to hurt you two ever in my life. i havent felt like myself the past week, and daddy thinks i might be pregant with another baby. i would be so happy if i was, but i want you both to know that even if i am THAT NOTHING WILL CHANGE BETWEEN YOU TWO AND ME. i will always feel the same about the both of you no matter how many brothers or sisters you two will have. no baby will ever replace you two in my heart. you two have a special place in my heart and we always have a special bond that was made the first time i held you two in my arms. you two were the most beautiful babies i have ever seen in my life and i mean that with all my heart. daddy misses you two like crazy and i know he was hurt on fathers day because you two werent here, even though he loved his card and shirt from you two. i just cant wait until we all get to meet again as a family. but i know you two are here with us every day and i know you guys watch over us and everything we do. so you two will know if you guys will be big brothers before me and daddy will. well babies i am going to go for now and i want you two to know that me and daddy got a new computer at our house, so we will be able to write you guys more and i am going to try my hardest to write you two every night like i use to. just remember mommy and daddy will never stop loving you two. we will love you two forever and always,

Love always,

Mommy and Daddy

Hayden and Kayden,

Hello to my two baby boys. Sorry I havent had a chance to write. i have been so busy at work and i hate it so much. i use to write every single day and now it has been hard because of work.  me and daddy went out to the cemetary on mothers day and planted some flowers and put some mulch down. it looks really good right now. and we will have the tombstone up within a month. i paid for it and i have everything done for it. i dont know yet if i have to get you two moved in order to put the tombstone up because i want everyone to know that i did it, and if it is on that grave everyone will think that i didnt pay for it or anything. but i dont know for sure what is going on. in july i am going to kings island with daddy, i hope we have fun but it is going to be hard with out you two there. and mothers day was really hard so i just stayed around the house and i fixed up your guys bedroom and got everything looking good in there. auntie heather is here with me right  now and she is staying the night tonight too. tayla is at her friends house and everything. well i better let you two get to bed. goodnight my twins and sweet dreams.

Love Always,

Mommy and Daddy

ps. we love you and miss you both like CRAZY!!

Kayden and Hayden,

How are my two wonderful baby boys doing tonight? great i hope. me and daddy are okay too but we would be great if you two were here with us, even though we know you two watch over us every night and day. but i always find myself thinking of you two and wondering if you guys are Really Okay?! i know you two are okay and i know you guys will always be okay but i feel so guilty. i will never get over the guilt of you two dieing. i will always think it was my fault even though everyone has said it isnt my fault. i know that god needed you both in heaven but i just wish that he would have let you two stay here with me. me and  daddy need you both more then words will ever explain. but i know that no matter how many times i beg, cry or scream out loud, i will never open my eyes and see you two in my arms. i know this but i always have faith that i will. i just wish i was dreaming all of this and i would wake up to everything being great again. to me, you two were the only things that made me want to go on in life, i wanted everything to be great when i found out about you two and i knew that when i felt down all i had to do was remember i would have two baby boys to have as my own and hold in my arms. althougth that time will not come on earth i know that when it does come, and whoever gets to you two first, me and daddy both will be full of love and joy, our empty hearts will be full as soon as one of us gets to hold our hayden micheal and kayden nickolas in our arms forever.

Love always and miss like crazy,

Mommy and Daddy (KISSES AND HUGGS)

hayden and kayden,

hello my two wonderful baby boys. how are you guys today? me and daddy are okay i guess. i am just have a lousy 19th birthday. i cant help thinking about you two. i miss you guys so much and i know there is nothing that i can do to make you guys come back to be here with me and daddy. we love you both very much and miss you both like crazy. its only two weeks away when all the pain is going to pour out of me and daddy. that will be your guys due dates but i know that we are not going to get to pick you two up from the hospital and take you home with us. i know that april 10th is going to kill me inside and also daddy too. just remember that every day that goes by, me and daddy think about you guys even more and we miss you both more and more each day. we will never stop loving either one of you.

love always,

mommy and daddy