Kayden and Hayden,

How are my two wonderful baby boys doing tonight? great i hope. me and daddy are okay too but we would be great if you two were here with us, even though we know you two watch over us every night and day. but i always find myself thinking of you two and wondering if you guys are Really Okay?! i know you two are okay and i know you guys will always be okay but i feel so guilty. i will never get over the guilt of you two dieing. i will always think it was my fault even though everyone has said it isnt my fault. i know that god needed you both in heaven but i just wish that he would have let you two stay here with me. me and  daddy need you both more then words will ever explain. but i know that no matter how many times i beg, cry or scream out loud, i will never open my eyes and see you two in my arms. i know this but i always have faith that i will. i just wish i was dreaming all of this and i would wake up to everything being great again. to me, you two were the only things that made me want to go on in life, i wanted everything to be great when i found out about you two and i knew that when i felt down all i had to do was remember i would have two baby boys to have as my own and hold in my arms. althougth that time will not come on earth i know that when it does come, and whoever gets to you two first, me and daddy both will be full of love and joy, our empty hearts will be full as soon as one of us gets to hold our hayden micheal and kayden nickolas in our arms forever.

Love always and miss like crazy,

Mommy and Daddy (KISSES AND HUGGS)